What do I really want? That is a good question … what do I really want? The first thing that comes to mind is: I REALLY WANT MY HAIR TO GROW BACK FASTER! But seriously, I’m not talking about what I want for Christmas or even what I want for dinner, but what do I really want my life to be like today and everyday? What I’ve written below is a copy of a page straight from my journal. I try to hand write 3 pages of my thoughts in my journal every day. I show up for myself on the page and I write about how I feel – it keeps me grounded. There are no rules about what I write, I just let it flow out of my heart onto the paper. They are rantings really, but it’s not for anybody else, just me – well, and now you. When I was done pouring out my thoughts on this particular day I realized something that gave me great sense of peace. You see, everything I wanted … I already have. Even better, everything I had declared out loud began to show up in my life even more abundantly. What I know for sure is … what you focus on is what you will find. So instead of complaining about what you don’t want, start thinking about what it is that you do want. I wanted to encourage you to make your own list. Think about it, what do you really want? It’s a question that can only be answered by you. I would love for you to leave me a comment and share 1 thing you really want.
I want to live cancer free. (woo hoo, I am!)
I want to inspire others to know God, intimately.
I want my life to have meaning & purpose – I want to feel like I matter.
I want to invest in people, not things.
I want my life to be less about me and more about others.
I want to live in the presence of the glory of God. Even in the mundane tasks of everyday life, I want to feel the warmth of His presence within me.
I want my spirit to thrive even though I am physically suffering. Regardless of how I feel, I want to remain warm, gentle, and kind.
I want to be comfortable with being weak and emotionally fragile so others can see that my strength truly comes from God.
I want to regain a sense of self appreciation for my gifts and talents, knowing that God is using every part of me for a greater purpose – His not mine.
I want to create and thrive as an artist, knowing that God delights in seeing me happy.
I want to see God in everything and exist in a place of child-like wonder.
I want to be filled with joy overflowing.
I want to feel beautiful from the inside out, there is more to me than how I look – hair or no hair!
I want to see God at work in everything – good and bad, to not be easily shaken. I want to know, without a shadow of a doubt, that all is well.
I want to live with such grace and truth that my life draws men to God.
I want my children to walk with God all the days of their life.
I want to bring my husband joy, not sorrow, all the days of his life.
I want my life to glorify God.